what's been happening.. well, there are things that still constantly spoil my days. I wont want to type them here or someone will get angry at me again. If me taking an interest in your daily life is controlling you, then fine I will not care.. I am sorry if noone cares about your daily life. I hate people who only ask how I am when they are free by then things are already over. What's the point of talking ?? I am glad I have friends who ask how's my day instead of how's my month.. ALL who are reading this, think about it. Its like you are a show to them, only when they are free then they will ask how are you, if they are not they just dun watch you. I mean how long can a "how is your day" take?? Maybe I am different..
Well, that part is for you people to think about it. This part is for me to try my hand at crapping.. Remember the previous post about "Men are.." ? Well, let see me try to crap my way out of 12 "Women are.." (I am not going to make fun of women, I think they are a very important part of my life)
1. Women are like ....... Laxatives ..... They get the bad stuff out of your system.
2. Women are like ...... Bananas ...... You need to open them up to see the good stuff about them.
3. Women are like ...... Weather ..... They sometimes go as fast as they come and leave your life in a mess but you know there will be sunshine after the rain.
4. Women are like ......Blenders ... You find that your life mixes into theirs.
5. Women are like ......Chocolate Bars .... They cheer you up when you are down and always so tempting.
6. Women are like .... Commercials ...... They have a lot to say but the men dun get it.
7. Women are like ....... Department Stores ..... They have everything you need.
8. Women are like ....... Fixed deposits.... You need to put in a lot but you are ensured more when they mature.
9. Women are like .... Make up ...... They can only make you look better.
10. Women are like ..... Popcorn .... You cant go to a movie without them.
11. Women are like .......Lava Lamps .... You can jsut keep looking into their eyes. (I know i loved to do that but she didnt like me to)
12. Women are like .......Parking Spots ....... You need to really fight for the ones that are worth it.
While doing this, i realised i had a very bad impression of women now, thanks to a someone. I didnt write what came first to my mind anyway thats not crapping. Its only good stuff there..
I think its time I had a little poll here at my blog, anyone who knows what I am talking about can post a reply. Either email to me or just tag at the tag board at the 4th X.
Well, as most of my classmates should have noticed. I have been really making fun of Funnie (fun sheng) and Ennie (yong en) I will like to know who thinks that they should be together. I think they are quite nicely matched but they will have some difficulty because of ennie being such a parent gal. She cant talk on the phone after 11, she has to ask permission to go out and she cant go out at night and she is really shy (which is kinda cute, dun you think FUNNIE ?? I KNOW YOU ARE READING THIS). But she has afew good points too. She looks and sounds like the kind that will be very faithful. From what I get from her, she seems like she is the kind who knows who to take care of her BF too. She cares a lot about how others feel and she is not shy about giving in to other and saying sorry even when its not her who did anything (reference to the mag thing). She seems like a really nice gal, I know I would go after her (if she looked a little better and I didn't have someone.)I thinks she is just nice for you Funnie. GO !! You dummy !! Dun miss this chance. AND IF YOU READ THIS ENNIE GO !!! You 2 are idiots but so am I. HAHA
so come on lets hear what you people have to say. The days.. well, the days are getting better or am I just getting used to it ?? I tried to be a nice guy this morning, I know she wont be able to wake up without a morning call. So I tried to give her one. I didn't want her to be late for her lesson. But I guess I did the wrong thing again. She sounded quite pissed when she picked up the call. hai~ even when I try to be a nice guy, things go wrong.
well, on a slightly happier note, I can open my right eye now. I feel so much better now that I can open it. Though I can't open it for long but it still feels good to be able to jugde distance. Been banging around my house. My vision in my right is slightly cloudy, everything is so blurred. OH yah, can anyone tell me why I have this bad taste at the back of my mouth when I put my eyedrops ?? My eye still looks really freakie.maybe I should put it as my msn pic. But nah.. I will scare the living daylights out of somepeopler and gross others totally out. This days are boring. I am so not in the mood to crap. Some people even say I have gotten boring. Well, even crappers got days-off. I will just continue like this for a while. My classmates are being really nice esp MONKEY FACE, REB AND FUNNIE. Thanks for updating me about the class happenings. I miss Daps, Veegina, mum and da xiao jie. Oops time to go put my eye drops again. I think I am so fat now. I want to go out but I keep banging into stuff better not to try or who knows ? The next time cause be something banging into me.. Maybe I will post and tonight.. We will see.. Have a topic in mind but its kinda weird to post it on my blog esp since its about 2 people in my class "funnie and ennie". Tell me if you all want to hear it. Its just a quick poll reply on my tag board. Who would like to see them together.
before I go.. I shall leave you with this message I saw at The Bitch's blog. Its kinda sexist..
1. Men are like ....... Laxatives ..... They irritate the shit out of you.
2. Men are like ...... Bananas ...... The older they get, the less firm they are.
3. Men are like ...... Weather ..... Nothing can be done to change them.
4. Men are like ......Blenders ... You need One, but you're not quite sure why.
5. Men are like ......Chocolate Bars .... Sweet, smooth, &they usually head right for your hips.
6. Men are like .... Commercials ...... You can't believe a word they say.
7. Men are like ....... Department Stores ..... Their clothes are always 1/2 off.
8. Men are like .......Government Bonds .... They take soooooooo long to mature.
9. Men are like .... .Mascara ...... They usually run at the first sign of emotion.
10. Men are like ..... Popcorn .... They satisfy you, but only for a little while.
11. Men are like .......Lava Lamps .... Fun to look at, but not very bright.
2. Men are like .......Parking Spots ....... All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped.
MY Sad Today.. i thought yesterday was a bad day.. today is like worse !! i woke up at 7 today to call a certain someone to wake up. i knew i should have called her. she went back to sleep as soon as she sms me to tell me she had woke up. then when i open my eyes to read the msg, i felt this sharp pain that shot through my brian. poor brian. i realised my right eye wont open and my left only opened a bit. In front of the mirror i forced open my right eye. man it was really red !!! it was so red i looked like a part of my tongue. here's a pic.. i think it looks damm gross.
The day itself was really boring. I had no human contact for most of the day. hai~ It can drive a guy who loves to talk really mad. slept throughout most of the day. so damm boring. till my mum got home then i went to see the DOCs ( yes all my dears, i will go to the doctors jsut need someone to go with me) wanted her to go with me but turns out she was working on something till 8. she only picked up 2 of my calls today. i think i called her over a 100 times throughout the day. hmm.. reb is being a nice gal and telling me about what happened today. i wanted to go back for TKD tomorrow but from the looks of that red thing, i guess not.
mum(serene) really sucks at selling stuff. she only sold 60 dollars worth of stuff today ?? she is complaining to me about the boring day she had. ya.. what about me ?? HAHA mum cant decide on what to eat for dinner. hey mum !! get something proper to eat. stop eating MAC !! its fattening.
You know whats the worse part of all this ?? i cant study !!! my exams are like coming and yet i cant read anything !!! hai~ and i cant tell anyone "i see" cos i dun. HAHA get it ?? i cant see cos my eye is swollen shut ?? ok fine i know its a lame joke (thanks for laughing sam, i know you are AHHA) Now i cant sleep cos i have been sleeping the whole day. got to put some cream into my eye hope i doesnt huert.. sing off with my screaming.. bye..
today was the ECONS project presentation. this is for those who are blind.. I SCREWED IT UP !!! hai~ My group was the first group to present. hai~ Due to some tech problems, our tutor mr Ranold ong got quite pissed.. hai~ ya everyone is right.. its over.. i screwed my stats too. only got like 12.5 out of 20 ?? what is happening ?? is my brian (done on purpose) having a breakdown ?? maybe he feels sad too ? got to work harder. i remember our lecture, Veegina.
went to study today (yes sam, i am sure and i dun have a fever, i hear you laughing at me sam and you too Rummy) with mum and jielin and her friends. nothing much happened. helped mum with her work and did some of my own too. ( its true) theres one thing i remember. I was doing my stats Qn and listening to music when all of a sudden, I hear this soft voice calling me. I looked up in the direction of the voice. Before my eyes could focus, the figure start to wave its hand very vigourously, so much so that it actually blurred my vision. HAHA It being the 7 month and all i was stunned. ( yes sam, stop laughing at me) Only when the blurry vision cleared that i see that it was joanna. My god, she has fast hands.
what else happened today.. i cant really remember.. jsut know that its 11 soon and i jsut got back from my jog.. its the 7th month and i still go out and jog. I think the ghosts msut be eyeing this fat ass. I am so asking for it. I dun know why but i like to keep myself busy when i feel down, be it work or go do some exerise. But since my knee twisted, i cant plya the game i love anymore. It hurts too much. hai~ saw the small fries from the court today. They still think they are some big shots sitting like they actually have water guns in there.
shit.. i forgot to post this.. its like the next day already.. sorry everyone..
this post goes out to my mooster of a friend and that dark fallen angel.. you 2 are real asses.. but thanks.. i know we never really have any convesations but do keep in mind that i value wat you 2 say..
i guess i was being a shit head typing those things out, i guess i really thought she was over us. that quickly you know.. thats why i got so tired of standing up for her. its not that i didnt try talking to her.. all the time we were agruring , was cos i was trying to find out stuff from her.. but you know my stupid dumb mouth.. its like the hell hole.. only bad stuff comes out.. And she does have people to talk to.. only she doesnt want to get them involed.. I know.. this whole bloody mess is my fault. i am trying to clean it up, ok ?? i just hope we wont agure so much as nothing passes between us. I would rather she talk to me than to anyone else. the reason i have so many people to talk to is cos when i am upset it doesnt matter who you are.. i wil jsut talk to you. i have not talked to Rummy for ages then i jsut spilled everything out to her.
Thanks you 2.. i still need to get my stuff down first, i guess. sorry for everything i caused, like its any use but ya..
Finally, we had a proper talk. Things were not how i thought they were. She is not interested in another guy and theres nothing going on between her and the guys. I guess i was jsut so paranoid. the things in my previous post was poured out in anger. I dun know what to do now, I read her blog. I wanted to jsut jump off a building, i hate myself for hurting her. She is torturing me. She tells me that she has not moved on and yet she will not try to get us back to how we used to be. She jsut wont try. It still hurts me to hear that. I think it hurts her to say that too.
I have not idea what to do, there is this one that can make me sort of forget about my Ex but i feel like i will be cheating her if i liked her now because i have no idea what. I cant go back, she wont take me back. i cant move forward because i will be cheating another. I guess i will jsut stand here for a while, getting drunk alone. I have a stats ICA tmr and i know nuts about it.
to her: i am sorry. i love you but i know it means nothing.. i really want to have you back in my life. i cant really forget you even in my sleep my dreams play our times together.
to the other one : i am sorry,i dun want to hurt you. You make me forget everything and believe that good feelings are not a myth. thank you. if you know who you are. thank you so much.
hey aishah, if you are reading this.. this is then the real letting out..
TAKEN OFF
On a happier note, i finally finished my macroecons porject. thanks to her i drown myself in work and finished it. Mum thanks for listening last night, though you never said much it was better to let it all out. SONG, i am sorry, i couldnt make it to your birthday, what kind of brother i am. i am so sorry, i even went with her, i am sorry. I need someone. Someone that can make me forget about her. i think there is someone but she is a little hard to talk to but she is really nice. HAHA who knows ? I need to move on, i think i should go abck to my old self, the heck care mother F**ker or the loner.. who knows ?? i know mum will be there for me, so will my bros and Rummy dear (thanks gal). I need to wake up my idea. Mum is right.. I am stupid. at least her guy still treats her a little like a dear, mine ?? she treats me like crap now.. I hate her.. yet i still cant bring myself to.. what a sad post this is. Well, hope things get better soon. i think i should go back to TKD. i miss the people there but i think only after the exams, my results should be my number one now. SO NYPTKD people, i will see you guys soon, i miss you guys so much !! training was so fun.
I ALMOST PUNCHED A GUY YESTERDAY BECAUSE HE SAID TKD WAS STUPID. ARGH !! I WAS GOING TO STAND UP AND GIVE HIMA 360 TURNING KICK. then i realised, if i did that, my time at training will be a waste because this is a art and a sport. We need discipline. THAT IS WHY THAT FAILURE WILL NEVER TRULY UNDERSTAND TKD. IF YOU WANT TO LEARN HOW TO STREET FIGHT, GET IN ONE WITH ME. IF YOU DUN LAND IN THE HOSPITAL, I WILL SEE THAT YOU WILL. F**K YOU FOR INSULTING SOMETHING YOU UNDERSTAND NOTHING ABOUT. The other reason, i did was cause mum was there and i promised her i would be a friendly good boy. LUCKY ASS.. I am so ready to explode..
jsut went to nurul's blog.. thanks gal.. i know you will always be there for me. Your blog made me think of alot of things, thanks.. I see that i did somethings wrongly too. we all make mistakes right ? i dare to admit mine. Well, theres still the marcoecons project to do stats ICA and the speech. guess its going to be busy.. life is crappy and shitty
Hai~ recently me and her are still aguring. i guess its my fault, i always do the stupid things ?? Well, i am trying to get us back to good friends, at least. Hey, IF you do read this, i know i am an idiot and i am stupid, jsut want to say sorry. please stop getting angry at me ?? Mum has been really nice to listen to my troubles (mum i know i sound really horrible, thanks for listening) and to accompany me to study after school. AF0601 is a great class, only thing is that they love to talk, behind people's back. i mean if you want to know something then jsut come straight out and ask it. Theres nothing between me and mum !!! HAHA mum is a real nce gal but sorry all guys and les, she is taken (not by me, by a drug addict) and mum, thanks for the song. I love it. It makes me feel better.. recently i have bee really into puzzle games like bejeweled 2. i guess it feels got to think about the game only and to totally thrash mum's score.. anyway my high scores for today
28 days and about 2 hours...i miss you.. i need you.. but i cant say it out.. i am dying without you. i am dying since i know that you have forgotten about us .. please come back..
well.. ya.. the bitch is gone.. she has gone off the AUS to further her studies, well hope she will take care of herself. HEY !! if you read this.. the house seems strangily quiet without your rubbish and screaming.. now noone will scold me about my friends staying over at my place and noone will bitch about me and my Ex in the room alone (ps. we were not doing anything,serious you think stuff up.) well, BITCH take care of yourself ya ?? i may not be that good a bro to you as i am to my friends.. but know that i will always be there for you if you need anyone. we homies, no ?? well, take care over there and know that you will be missed(together with all your screamings) and we will take care over here alright ?? waiting for the day i hear your screaming and bitching again.. we will go for a drink that time ?? hope so..
The past 24 hours.. Hai~ starting off with the AA meeting.. man it was crap.. i hate it when i call people and they dun turn up. The drinking totally sucked, Captian didnt go !! what the hell la.. hai~ sad.. all the planning for shit.. we stayed up to watch the match, ITALY WON !!! i am so happy.. Denise, you are right.. Zidane's header was a shocker, i didnt think he will do anything like that.
The next morning, it was so hard to wake Jie lin up la. kept getting scolded for trying to wake her. In the end i didnt bath because if i did i think we would be late for the next part. well, we planned to celebrate Vee's birthday today, though its a little late HAHA HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY VEEGINA. well, something happened that i really didnt like.. Our class rep, mr jeremy hoe, asshole.. we asked him to ask around to see if who would be able to make it for the mini celebration the previous night but that lazy ass didnt even do anything. In the end, Jielin had to be the one to ask around.What kind of class rep are you man ?? wait can i call you that ?? no i think boy will be better. whats wrong with you ?? you are the class rep. you are the one who is suppose to organize the things for the class, not sit on your fat ass and get free CP marks. do something man. well, no point talking about unhappy things.. going to move the happy things away from this...
Veegina's birthday celebration.. finally, something went a bit right. we celebrated Vee's birthday in school today. Here's some pics. woke up early just to get the cake but it was all worth it to see him so happy. HAHA..
WHOO.. the AA's blog is semi-up.. all new and up coming events will be posted there, my blog will only say that it is in planning. people interested in finding out who we are and all that. do go check us out but we are a sort of private club. HAHA yes its kinda hard to get in.. unless you know me.. HAHA i am the vice-cap.. a crapper for vice-cap.. wat rubbish but wat fun we have.. When its fully up, all members please remember to post taht it is up thanks.. if you want to request events to be planned also can request to there..
John's birthday..
Man !! it was fun jsut now.. HAHA.. ITS JOHN"S BIRTHDAY !!! HAHA i love that fellow.. he is like a super nice guy but this is what we did to him.. HAD SO MUCH FUN !! we were throwing cake at him and all that.. HAHA and he was running around the basketball court and CC HAHA but we still got him.. the cake was not bad too.. HAHA but it was all over him.. you guys want to try, got to go lick it from him..
Our other halfs are what we look for in our lifetimes, we spend days looking for our other halfs. Some of us find them, others dun.. And when we do, we become whole and spend the rest of our lives together... well, i remember seeing this somewhere cant really remember.. its about how god creates our other halfs..
At first, after god made man, he thought.. hmm.. he will be lonely, lets make him a friend to walk with him through the tests i have set for him. Then God got the idea of a woman but to make a prefect half he needed a bone for the man and he chose the rib. why did he choose the rib ?? asked man. God later said to man.. I didnt choose your foot bones for you to stand on top of her, I didnt choose your skull for her to stand on top of you, I didnt choose from your back so that she will follow your every word, I didnt choose from your hand so that she can be used by you. I chose the rib cause she is meant to be your equal, to stand beside you. she meant to be there, in your arms and close to your heart so she can protect it. she surrounds your weakest part, without her, you will be killed easily. With that, man understood and together they were whole..
reading this again.. i realise it is a little sexist.. but it is really interesting, i really like it.. well i am off, going out to buy denise her birthday gift and my jacket. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAL !!! HAHA.. will be back later to post.. maybe..
BACK FROM OUTING..
well, i am back to post.. i tell you ar.. Denise Hoe is really damm good a friend man.. at first we were suppose to meet at 315 but lets guess wat time she came.. 330 ?? no.. 345 ?? no.. 4 ?? no 415 ?? NO !!! she met me at 430 !!! look at how bored i was..=> she is really damm good at being late :P but its ok i am used to it.. I mean she has never been on time to meet me before unless she is already there and wants me to go over. went to buy my jacket today.. but when we got there.. saddness.. my jacket size was out of stock.. and they only had XS or XL.. hai~ Anyway, i saw Aishah when i was coming out of starbucks with her. hope she is not going to make anything out from that HAHA.. after walking alot.. we couldnt find where was the PUMA shop in orchard. what lousy shoppers we are right ?? YES.. its been a long time since i was in orchard.. miss my buddies that i go with.. my school peeps wont ask me out to shop. The AA will only go people's house and drink.. my mum maybe she will, jielin totally not, i cannot go out with her.she is a different kind of gal, as she herself said her taste different from mine.. I mean it is really different, i am totally not used to what kind of shops she goes into.. Oh well, in the end, we went to spotlight to buy denise's bottoms and she still hasnt found what she wanted, she doesnt want me to pay that much.. what a nice gal.. my ass, come on time next time please.. but ya.. thanks for coming out i kinda like going out with you.. its fun.. i get to talk crap and dicuss about stuff and see a retarted-always late bimbo AHHA.. anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! SWEET 16~ HAHA enjoy your birthday..
Time to get up and go.. walking to school this morning, i realised lao ma's words are right.. i started out with nothing yet i have survived for 17 years already.. Thanks mum..
well, I was stabbed in the heart, I fell, I bled.. Now.. I think I stayed down long enough. Time to get up again. I pull out the knife and discard my already dead heart. I stand on my 2 feet. Staill a little weak from the pain but at least I am standing now. I say to my dead heart, I am sorry i caused your death. Then i think, i am still standing, my heart will grow back.. as long as I am standing. With that, my dead heart turns to dust and is blown away with the wind. Yes.. my heart is now with the wind. Time to move on..
I am a pangster, the Gin Advocate, an Ex saint.. I maybe heartless but i am not alone here. Now, I pick up my stuff and limp on. Time to get out of this darkness.
I know the guys that helped me will mostly not know that they did but I have to say this.. your thoughts and our memories helped me alot, esp of the things last time, they taught me how to stand up once I fell. Thanks Hs and the pangz
And hey lao ma and reb, I didnt forget you 2. Thanks for help me get through the night. though i still didnt sleep much..
well, even england and brazil are out now. I have no reason to continue watching the world cup. yap.. well, i know this would happen. knew i should have kept my mouth shut. now my words are out and i am shit again.. you dun know how i feel, the past few days have been shit, arguing with you. you know wat hurts a guy most ?? Knowing that what he had let go is what he needs, knowing that he once had something he longed so much for and knowing that he just no matter how much he wanted, cant have you back in his life.. If your answer to me is no.. then can i ask 1 more thing from you ?? Dun ask me do cheer up.. When you ask me that today i was already trying to hold back my tears..
I know.. I am weak, you are my only weakness.. Guess its hard to believe that such a guy can be so weak.. I need to eat, i always eat when i am upset. It jsut takes my mind off things. What a way to end my wild ride.. slaming into a wall..
firstly.. argentina is now out of the world cup, all credit to germany who hold on to their nerves. but i am still disappointed at the result.. secondly, cheryl has reached Austraila, wont be able to see her for another 6 months.Hai... lastly, the thing that upset me the most.. YOU !! YOU ARE JSUT REALLY SELFISH !!! is it really too much to ask you to understand how people feel ?? i know you got your limits.. but what about mine ?? can you use your brain and think ?? its the same thing then.. i really hate arguing with you, i wish i wont have to argue with you but you are like picking on the holes of what i say.. i feel like every small thing i say is not pleasing to your ears..
I dun know, maybe its just the stuff from the last few days catching up with me.. i need a break, sort of done with my marketing project, only need to go to school to check with the teacher for some parts.. I know what i need !!! i need john !!! HAHA sounds gay.. but that fello is a great guy to go out with.. well jsut chilling for now, buying dinner from subway later..
Today has jsut been a weird day..its 1:15 am on the first of july, the past 12 hours have been a crazy, wild and sad day.. as from the previous 2 posts, you can most prob will be able to guess that i started out quite low.. after meet denise for some look-see therapy (which cheered me up alot) i went to meet my Ex, i dun know wat happen but nowadays we seem to only agure, its like the only thing we do.. feel so used and sad, i dun want to agure with you, it SUCKS ALOT TO AGURE WITH YOU.. then went i got home i went out with my bro to grab a bite at subway.. then i got when i was on msn.. 5% told me that she was deppressed and called me to talk.. we talked alot of our old stuff, things that went wrong and wat is going wrong now. Guess i am happy that she trusts me enought to tell me this stuff. Then i got a message.. at about 1 am, its strange for me to get messages at night. then i saw that it was HS (my main man). he told me he just broke up, i was shocked. He is like THE NICEST GUY on earth, why would he break up ?? i am serious shocked by it. feeling a little down again... hope he gets over it quickly, i hate to see him upset..
will always be there for you if you need anyone. we homies, no ?? well, take care over there and know that you will be missed(together with all your screamings) and we will take care over here alright ?? waiting for the day i hear your screaming and bitching again.. we will go for a drink that time ?? hope so..
HAD SO MUCH FUN !! we were throwing cake at him and all that.. HAHA and he was running around the basketball court and
CC HAHA but we still got him.. the cake was not bad too.. HAHA but it was all over him.. you guys want to try, got
to go lick it from him.. 
YES.. its been a long time since i was in orchard.. miss my buddies that i go with.. my school peeps wont ask me out to shop. The AA will only go people's house and drink.. my mum maybe she will, jielin totally not, i cannot go out with her.she is a different kind of gal, as she herself said her taste different from mine.. I mean it is really different, i am totally not used to what kind of shops she goes into.. Oh well, in the end, we went to spotlight to buy denise's bottoms and she still hasnt found what she wanted, she doesnt want me to pay that much.. what a nice gal.. my ass, come on time next time please.. but ya.. thanks for coming out i kinda like going out with you.. its fun.. i get to talk crap and dicuss about stuff and see a retarted-always late bimbo AHHA.. anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! SWEET 16~ HAHA enjoy your birthday..