Finally, we had a proper talk. Things were not how i thought they were. She is not interested in another guy and theres nothing going on between her and the guys. I guess i was jsut so paranoid. the things in my previous post was poured out in anger. I dun know what to do now, I read her blog. I wanted to jsut jump off a building, i hate myself for hurting her. She is torturing me. She tells me that she has not moved on and yet she will not try to get us back to how we used to be. She jsut wont try. It still hurts me to hear that. I think it hurts her to say that too.
I have not idea what to do, there is this one that can make me sort of forget about my Ex but i feel like i will be cheating her if i liked her now because i have no idea what. I cant go back, she wont take me back. i cant move forward because i will be cheating another. I guess i will jsut stand here for a while, getting drunk alone. I have a stats ICA tmr and i know nuts about it.
to her: i am sorry. i love you but i know it means nothing.. i really want to have you back in my life. i cant really forget you even in my sleep my dreams play our times together.
to the other one : i am sorry,i dun want to hurt you. You make me forget everything and believe that good feelings are not a myth. thank you. if you know who you are. thank you so much.
