Wet summer days..

hai~ i dun understand myself.. why do i care so much about my friends around me ?? i do i always make them part of my own life ?? do i really trust them too much ?? HEY !! if you actaully read this.. i am super super disapointted in you.. you know very well i hate smokers.. you know i gave up friendships jsut because they started smoking.. people who give in are .... i dun want to say about you.. jsut hope you mean what you say.. that you wont buy ever again//

do you know that i still think about you for a while in this summer days ?? i know you most prob dun give a damm about me already.. was thinking about going to KRUNK... that party you were going to.. but.. i think about it now.. i dun really wnat to spoil your fun.. i still care about why you are down and hope that gal returns you your money.. strange right ?? i know.. my mind has been rather in a mess.

this last part is for those who may have misunderstand my posts. well right now, i am not dating anyone.. for real.. i guess its that much hard to find people now.. and i am no flirt. sam is my best friend.. i dun really consider her as GF material.. SW.. i am sorry if i mislead you, tai zi can find a millions to like you, just cant find one reason to really love you.

I am so tired too, med.. i read your post.. to give up or to keep trying ?? should i jsut give up ?? but i have hung on so long already.. ya its been so long so long, so alone.. never mind.. keep trying.. i need some time with someone close to me, but since i feel too betrayed to talk to her.. i will find HIM.. he has always been there..