Hey all, you know you miss me..

ya, i am here.. that means my com is back from that place far far away. woohoo.. feels great to have it back. a small update on my life, nothing much going on.. a few weird dreams ( Of someone new ok ?? laggards) thats about it.. hey, tell you a secret.. i miss you !! yes you !! you may not know it but i do !! really i swear
Genting was fun !! this one loves spending money.. spent like 560 RM.. cool right ?? never felt so good in my life !! oh wait.. there was once i spent 500 SGD WOOO !! HAHA.. need money now.. for SHOES !!
How sad is my life ?? the one i think is right never likes me hai~ sad right ???
recently i feel like the court is calling out to me. its like my heaven you know ?? its where i run to when i am down or up.. i love it.. have been playing, shooting balls and even afew games. (yes i know, sorry lil bimbo i cant bring myself to stop playing) my knee hurts at night after those games. but i willingly exchange it, theres a price to pay for everything right ?
Oh ya.. sad right is the new ligo..
Friends as usual have always contacted me. be it any of the different groups. the last few days the PK people have been more in contact, maybe cos i have been going down to the court. oh well good to see jana and sher again.. those asses HAHA.. john has been calling me out too HAHA that ass hasnt found a job yet. hope he gets one soon !! HAHA..

what more can i say ?? this is just my life !! HAHA you got to love it..

shi long will be genting-ing for 3 days.

shilong is unable to blog due to certain circumstances. haha. so here i am advertising for him (:

poor ow shilong. can't post. cos his sister enabled the cookies. hahaha. so that poor poor him cant even sign in. and the rich rich me is helping him to post. ok lame.



shilong: credits given to lil bimbo for the song.

results day..

ooh my gosh.. the results are out.. so sad.. this one only got 3.109 GPA.. mum and sis are going to freak.. hai~ so sad.. accounts got A as usual, marcoecons got a weak C+. stats got a disappointing B.. (so sad !! i didnt finish the paper !!!) marketing got a suprising B+.. oral com hai~.. a B.. while the stupid internet and web tech mod.. i will only say i am lucky not to take the sup after what happened.. HAI~ really disappointed in a way.. but sort of glad i dun need to take sup.. at least can enjoy my holiday.. HOPE YOU ALL GET WHAT YOU WANT !! and to those taking sup.. ALL THE BEST !! lets all work harder next sem !! GAMBATEI !!!you are the reason i stand up time and again, you've given me a purpose.. will you take my hand and make me whole again ??

Funny eh ??

today.. i wont say its a really boring day but it is in a way.. AHHA jsut sat around watching my anime till about 230.. guess my tv was ready to blow up on me HAHA.. so i decided to go out for a walk.. guess what happen ??


YES !! i bought comics again !! about 50 bucks worth !! i love them !!! bleach is till book 13 while TSUBASA chronicle is till 10.. HAHA spending gets my mind of alot of thingss.. like how bored i will be tomorrow. its my free day but i got nothing on !! only thing comfirm about tmr is that i am going to the hospital with my dad and my grandma.. seems me having holiday got me into this..

i want to continue food trail !!! MUM !! come back from chalet quick !! we have so many places to go before my sis gets back !!

and talk about cravings.. my drinking craving is out of control !! cant wait for the next time we drink !! HAHAbut i promise i wont drink too much alright ?? or can i change that to a i drink one time alot ?? HAHA well, we wont know till we start right ?? MUHAHAHA..days in the dark are harsh, will you see that i am treating you well ?? will you see that i am ther for you ?? and what will be your reaction ??

Way off now..

guess what time i woke up on the 9th ?? 630am !!! thats nuts.. ya i know.. but nvm went to meet yun han and cheryl for their audition for project superstar. HAHA a bit bo liao right ?? ya i know.. cheryl was really scared at the start, she was almost crying HAHA wanting her mummy.. she looked really good today man.. YUN HAN was so jap today !!! OMG they both were so good looking i tell you.. i wont recongnise them if i didnt know i was meeting them.Well, in the end both of them didnt get in.. too bad.. but had fun right ?? Didi was so OUTSTANDING CAN ?? he was the only blooody guy in the whole of toa payoh who so skinny, actions so funny and wear PINK de AHHAHA..

My knee has been hurting more recently, hai~ dun know.. maybe its the same as my mood.. screwed up.. it hurt alot when i was coming back from dinner and after that. hai~ maybe its because of all the air con i have been sleeping. i guess it must be.

i can finally understand my past few weeks already. but its a very sad path that my heart has chosen to take. for i know she wont feel the same way. seems like the old days are back. i have been wondering if i was a flirt or something was wrong with me. because i was changing gals like clothes, i mean really 3 days and i lost feeling for them already.. but thanks to 2 recent dreams.. i see. my heart has found someone it wants to protect. never letting her cry again.. but as sad as my life always is.. i really doubt that she feels the same way as me do.. well, let hope things change. back to the ninjisu days..

spending alot on comics recently.. started buying the bleach series and the TSUBASA chronicle series.. last week i offically spent 100 dollars on comics.. i guess the old days are really on their way back.. my life is going to get back to how it was.. so glad to hear that..

Funny how things are..

well its a new day now.. jsut past 12 not long. jsut off the phone with little bimbo, things were happening at her house, family stuff. hope things settle down at your end alright lil bimbo ?? dun want to hear you crying again.. this one has a soft heart. cant stand to hear gals cry.

dun know how but i made fu ler angry at me.. she said she dun like my attitude, i was like huh ?? did i show attitude to her ?? i didnt ar.. we were so happy all the time.. oh well.. my fault again i guess.. seems like i always do the wrong things right ?? ya..

i realised something a while back.. i cant spend good times with people, i always become very heck care and very attitude i guess. well, its been like that for years, you guys are not the first to say it. i guess i kinda dun want to have good times with anyone. i will take your sorrows, your pain, your problems, your complains anyday, in fact i prefer that you come to me went you are down than to when you are happy. makes me feel that you trust me. rather than me having to ask you how are you all the time. thats why my top 5 are to close to me i guess. back to good times, i guess the main reason will be people dun last. they come and go, i dun wish to have good times with you is because i dun want to miss the good times when you are gone. a few people have done that to me.. ya.. sad ?? nah.. i like my life the way it is. see and hearing people smile after they talk to me. its like a light that tells me i am doing right. but ya.. i have a strange habit of loving the people closest to me.. maybe because i feel that they trust me and they open their hearts to me..

Random stuff..

totally bored at home today.. still a little sian for the last post. but who cares.. i am jsut going to ost the first things that comes to my mind..(dun blame me, i am bored)

I am sick of chicken rice, been having that for the past few days.

my bed seems too big for one person, looking for someone to share it with.

my phone is going to break because i keep droping it.

i hate my knee.

i miss basketball

i need a drink.

I LOVE KENNY !!


Now, lets make a list of the top 10 people that mean the most to me. HAHA i am seriously bored..

1) Teo huan song (best brother)
2) Alicia Ng liting (my best and prettiest gal friend,always calls me to fetch her when i am down. eh i very good hor say you prettiest leh.)
3) SAM !! (my fav crapping partner)
4) Denise hoe (smooth and cutest gal)
5) Kenneth hoe (2nd best brother)
6) John fan (best guy cocker)
7) Shao qi (shi fu)
8) Nikki ow (my sis)
9) serene ow ( my mum)
10) alot of people are fighting for this last place. but i am going to give it to LAO MA since she is the one that contacts me the most of all. hey lao ma you are the only poly person that made the list ok ?? HAHA reb was second runner up HAHA..

Of my top 10, i consider 1 to 5 above myself. they mean more to me than myself. they sort of been there when i needed them jsut that they didnt know it. esp li ting. thank you to her man.. or alot of times i would have lost my cold with so many people.

i am still bored, i want to get out.. meeting fo ler tmr to teach her phy. anyone lese needs help in phy ?? denise you ?? hai~ i think i will jsut go start callling people.. i am bored...

OH YES !! i almost forgot.. this a big sorry to the little bimbo i got piss at yesterday. sorry, this one was in a bad mood. didnt mean to scare you. but i am kinda scary when i am angry right ?? HAHA sorry again ar..

HAI~ Rough ride..

i sort of hate myself, you know ?? everytime i think i am over it, i will have some weird dream or some flashbacks.. argh !! got to get help.. ALICIA !!! hai~

went to Kbox today, to let yun han and cheryl prepare for project superstar. listen to them and Fun sheng sing all the emo songs plus the dream i had last night equals me in unstable condition. got angry at cheryl for nothing. dun know why too. hai~ guess some part of me still wonders.. Reb is being really nice to talk to me now. kinda funny cos my ex was never on my list. guess i should have followed my policies.

Didnt sms Fo ler today.. was late to wake her up this morning.. i fell asleep at 12, i was suppose to wake her up at 1 AHHA.. in the end i woke up at 430 AM!! i looked at the time and was totally stun.. straight away sms her ask her if she is awake.. lucky she was already studying, sms her for a while till i finally fell back asleep at 530.. HAHA come to think of it, she is really really cute. i feel really comfortable around her when we were working.

Tai zi is really sick of everything. he needs a break. jsut one lucky break. please.. he wont give or give up. he only asks for one more lucky break. he knows what he has to prepare for now. things were not what he thought.

Tai zi is struggling now.. He has got 3 cravings to handle. Smoke, Drink and play.. this 3 i promised someone i wont do or do too much. i mean to keep my promises to her. wait.. i always try to keep my promises. everytime my dad lights up in the house. i feel like going over and take a puff. BUT NO !! i wont give in.. this craving has been with me for years.. my family's first born son always smokes and drinks. its been like this for afew generations.. and the other sons are guai kias. i wont smoke !!! argh !! i gave in to drinking le. now its time to go back till the time when i was before poly. till that nice guy again. even with my scars..