Funny how things are..

well its a new day now.. jsut past 12 not long. jsut off the phone with little bimbo, things were happening at her house, family stuff. hope things settle down at your end alright lil bimbo ?? dun want to hear you crying again.. this one has a soft heart. cant stand to hear gals cry.

dun know how but i made fu ler angry at me.. she said she dun like my attitude, i was like huh ?? did i show attitude to her ?? i didnt ar.. we were so happy all the time.. oh well.. my fault again i guess.. seems like i always do the wrong things right ?? ya..

i realised something a while back.. i cant spend good times with people, i always become very heck care and very attitude i guess. well, its been like that for years, you guys are not the first to say it. i guess i kinda dun want to have good times with anyone. i will take your sorrows, your pain, your problems, your complains anyday, in fact i prefer that you come to me went you are down than to when you are happy. makes me feel that you trust me. rather than me having to ask you how are you all the time. thats why my top 5 are to close to me i guess. back to good times, i guess the main reason will be people dun last. they come and go, i dun wish to have good times with you is because i dun want to miss the good times when you are gone. a few people have done that to me.. ya.. sad ?? nah.. i like my life the way it is. see and hearing people smile after they talk to me. its like a light that tells me i am doing right. but ya.. i have a strange habit of loving the people closest to me.. maybe because i feel that they trust me and they open their hearts to me..