A huge loss..

hai~ seems like all my loves are being taken away from me. my greatest love, basketball was pulled away from me when my knee gave way.. now..

FUCK !! my bike.. this really sucks !! ARGH !!!! feel like screaming my lungs out now.. ARGH !!! why my bike !! my darling for 9 years.. whenever i feel this F**K i always have my bike to turn to. i will jsut get on it and just keep riding and riding, till i feel better, till i was totally numb. but now... i have nothing !!! FU(k ARGH !!!! i just like to feel the wind in my hair again and all the hard knocks we had together..

i remember all the times like it was yesterday.. all the times racing with the buses.. all the time i would jump off the endless dirt ramps behind my grandma's.. the times i would speed down the hills around my grandma's, racing cars to see who was faster... all the falls i had with that bike.. all the scars, pain,scratchs and blood. i really loved that bike. it was my best friend for 9 whole years. i loved it.. now.. its beyond repair.. its body is totally broken and with it my heart..

i really feel like tell my bike that i am sorry. if i knew that this would happen. i would have riden so dangerously all this times.. all the jumps and accidents.. i feel so lost now.. its like.. shit.. ARGH !!! CRAP !!!! 9 years..

i am not sad, jsut empty.. theres no feeling.. some will say its nothing jsut get a new bike but to me its like seeing your best friend die infront of you.. ARGH !!! I HATE MY LIFE !!! ARGH !!! my 2 greatest loves are gone.. whats next ?? fine take it all..