Realised..

had been have a few thoughts since sat. i realised a few things.]

firstly, i feel really light now. as if all the chains that were holding me now have all been broken. i have been set free. thank you, you know who. you set me free. since that time, the first crash, i havent really recovered totally. i still bore the wounds that had been inflicted on me but thanks to you, i finally stopped open them up again and they are healed.

i realised that i really dun need anyone. i am strong enough to be the pillar of strength for all who need me. i used to doubt my strength and my skills but i know now, i can do it !! i will be there for all of you all. i promise. walk with me and i shall support and protect you. i shall walk my own way and those who follow shall have my hand.

lastly, i would like to say this. thanks to everything all seven locks are broken. i am completely black now. how scary poly is.. in 7 months a person can really change. start by those 2. a captain and a charge.. hai~ dun know if it was a good thing or a bad thing. things are jsut for fun now. the dark side of me is out. all 7 sins that were locks have been unlocked..
anyway want to say this, i am single yes. but i am not looking. gals have lost their meaning. maybe i lost trust in them, maybe i lost trust in me. everything is for fun now. unless someone's light can shine into this cave i found comfort in.