The rubbish knee..

woke up at 7 in the morning.. guess what.. my knee HURT LIKE HELL !! i mean i could move it la.. it was unbearable so i limped all the way to the toilet on the heater and sat at my table waiting for the water. who knows.. i fell asleep. my dad woke me up at 755 my god was i late for class.. rush out of the hose after bathing. then i realised.. my knee wasnt so painful anymore.. maybe its PMS-ing..

ok.. right now.. i just reached home from the court. why am i home so early ?? COS MY FREAKING KNEE ALMOST GAVE WAY !! was freaking scared when it happened. exactly like the last time. you hear the joint turning then you feel your knee bending in a way it shouldnt. luckily my other leg was firm enough to support me or it would jsut have given way. this weakness is killing me !! my knee is the only thing holding me back !! argh !!

hai~ not in a really good mood. got a sms that i didnt really want to read. but guess thats life. what we want, we dun get.. learn to appreciate what i already have. spend 3 hours just alone at the court before join the rest for a game. jsut thinking replying and thinking somemore. then i remembered something i learnt long ago, the reason why things are so hard is cos we are tested of how much we really want it. then i decided that i am going press on cos i found something i dun want to give up on. at least not so easily. but.. one word will be enough to make me stop. funny ?? guess it is a little

how am i to be in the right state of mind..
when my mind is not even with me ??