Sad cousins..

argh.. the last few days have not been easy man. sometimes i wonder why i always willingly be the listener to the sad people around me. its hard mantaining a proper mood after hearing their stuff. its even harder if you HAVE to mantain your mood. thats why my nick now is "give me strength to bear the unbearable." but nvm.. its sort of part of me. guess thats why i am the only one left in the DA. help everyone to get out of it.

at first, it was only jana. Now.. seems like shawn has joined in too. hai~ this 2 sad cousins. been their listenning ear for the past few days. guess thats all i can do. noone really listens to what i say. but its ok i guess..

hai~ havent msg someone seriously for a while now. maybe cos i am having exams. too busy ?? nope.. just get the feeling that she has her stuff and i should be doing my part too. or is it that i do not want to pressure her in anyway ?? god knows.. sometimes when we msg, things are nice and everything else doesnt matter. but somedays.. you jsut get the feeling that she is having her fun and you should jsut let her have it. argh.. what i am saying ?? i am getting too attached to the "feeling" she gives me. i am such a kid..

my gut tells me we wont be together, my brain tells me i am not worthy of such beauty..
but the heart jsut wants to wait around..