I will take the hardest path..

i need to do this. i am sorry. if i am ever going to get over you unless you dun want me to get over you. my heart is in such emptiness. it wants you back but i have decided that i will respect your decision. we have ended.. my heart now needs to learn to live without you. best way to do that.. ripped it out. means totally have no thoughts, no contact with you. it will hurt like hell but if thats what you want.. this is what i must do. so everyone, let me be a heartless bastrad for a while ok ? i am sorry.. it will take a long time but i will be back to that nice guy after i am healed till then guess devil will not need to have heart to anyone.

it will hurt like hell but i will still wear a smile. i am happy that you accepted me, gratful for all the times we spent together in our short time. still feel your small hand in mine, still taste a little of honey but guess time will make it fade. either that or the pain will make me totally numb.

i took a huge risk showing my nice side to someone. normally people have to find it on their own but i beared it out to you.
i guess i took the first step of this cliff, going to lock myself away in my darkness. till someone finds my key..