Someone stab me, it will make me feel better..

i thought i found a wall that i could climb to reach that light that shines from you. seems like.. i slipped off. back into this darkness, this loneliness. my life is in a total mess. i total lost control when i slipped off. its like a HUGE part of my life just got ripped out of me by force. freaking hurts like hell. Someone stab me, it for sure will make me feel better. life right now, is void of all emotion. i seem like i am laughing, i seem like i am ethu but theres nothing under this sheet. a ghost in a shell i guess.

dun worry, if you read this. i know it will hurt. i said i will take it and i mean EVERY SINGLE WORD i said to you. you take your time, tell me when you are really ready to talk. you know where to find me. i will be locked up in my emptiness and sorrow and my shell will be thorny and hurting to whoever that comes near. guess thats why everyone thinks i am a bastrad cos i take so long to get over a person.

i dun care what the world thinks. what matters is what you and i think. i want you to be happy everyday. you had fun today, guess i should be happy. i will be once i get my feelings back. nothing is more important than you being happy, if it makes you happy. i will accept any decision you make, i have made mine.

please stay happy and well, so i wont worry so much about you.
its not if you can take care of yourself..
its how much you mean to me..