A weird turn of events..

damm the day was damm fun man.. but. ya.. it got screwed.. guess it was our fault too.. ya.. it takes 2 hands to clap. we got our part too..

this is totally weird.. ok.. i am in the SUB com of the SBM (school of Business Management) club. and this club is suppose to represent the people of SBM right ?? we are suppose to be leaders for the people in SBM. we are suppose to lead by example, we are suppose to be ON, to be up for the challenage.

but.. what i saw today. everyone was just followers.. follow what other people say. ok chris told me to bring a frisbee, a football and a beach mat. ok.. i did that.

the first thing that got on my nerves was.. everyone was late. at 12 (which was the meeting time) only what me, zhi wei, chris and elizabeth were there. i mean WTH la. FROM THAT I LEARN IN SEC SCHOOL WAS FIRST THING ABOUT LEADERSHIP IS RESPONSABILTY. if you cant be even on time, you think people will respect you ?? man, i played mahjong till late last night but i make an effort to come 30 mins early cos i knew i might be late if i dun but at 12 who do i see ?? argh.. and they still tell us we need to learn to be efficent in LTC.. learn to be on time ??

second thing.. argh.. i serious what never seen people organise a beach outing and sit in the shade. isnt the beach about the sun, the sand, the sea and the fun ?? argh.. totally dun get it. if we were just going to play cards and sit around and chill. why not have a BBQ ?? wont that be prefect ?? i bet noone has any problems with that.. i doubt even if they did, they will say.

third thing.. we got high, keep in mind not drunk. cos i cant tell you everything that happened in order even backwards. we were high and lee and john were not even high plus we had eve there. basically there were 2 high guys and 2 people looking after them and i can hear someone tell john that they cant trust us ?? whats up with that ?? argh..

fourth thing.. i feel really sad about this point man. when the 5 guys were playing in the day. we were playing mind you. beach games like volley ball, soccer and frisbee. NOONE joined us. we asked around but some people treated us like we were the wind.. WTH..

fifth thing.. in my sec school, we had like 10 instructors for 300 plus students means like 1 instrustor had to take care of 30 students. we could all take care of them, have fun with them and BOND with them. 1 instructor BOND with 30 students. why could this happen ? cos people were willing. some of us smoked, others like me drink and partied but noone looked down on us, noone rejected our ways, NOONE OUTCASTED. 300 STUDENTS THANKED US FOR BEING THEIR BROTHERS AT THE END. now.. i dun know about you people but today, i saw john being left out, i saw kenneth only had lee to talk to. people were being outcasted. isnt this outing suppose to be for bonding ?? ISNT NO MAN SUPPOSE TO BE LEFT BEHIND ?? i feel damm weird now.. if this was my group, i would personally screw everybody, like they way we are suppose to know where all our groupmates were in LTC. isnt that what WE LEARNT ? or have we learnt nothing ??

ALL THIS IS FROM WHAT I LEARN FROM MY 2 LTCs. leadership, its not about leading blindly. its about leading your group, about serving your group. how so ? your group needs a leader so you step up, you lead, you represent your people. but what this ?? are all leader suppose to cover their own asses ? or do we take shit and stick together through thick and thin ?? i know i will stick.. though i disliked people from day one but i accept them for who they are and i work with them. if this "drunkard" can do that, why cant you ?? or are you saying i am better than you ?? arent i suppose to be equal ?? so you do the same !!

think about it, do i make sense ?? i am saying out what i learn in my LTC. i have been an instructor before. i have been a head of a WHOLE camp. i know.. its hard but still noone gets leftout..

one for all, all for one..
or do you all jsut want to be your "all" ??
if you do, i got nothing to say..