walking to school today. i was taking note of the people around me, i realised something. the people are looking down. on the floor. i dun know about the people out there but when i look at the floor i get rather "confined" in my space. you try it.. when you are walking outside. try looking on the ground then slowly tilt your head upwards. you can feel it. its like you are coming out of a cave.
a book told me its called "looking at the horizon". its one of my fav things to do when i am walking. if you are looking at the horizon, try closing your eyes you will see that you can feel your soul connecting to the things around you. feel it grow in a way.
but there are some things that you might want to know. when looking at the horizon, dun look below the horizon. may it be in fear of the setting sun or the elements. you will find that you'll end up looking at the ground again. BUT ! dun look too high above the horizon, for you will end up looking in the sky and lose yourself in the space.
but look jsut right and you will feel it..
I MISSED YOU SO MUCH THIS FEW DAYS !!! :( i want to hug you so bad.
baby was asking for a testimonial for me. Not sure why all of a sudden she wants one. Got down to thinking for one. i thought, i thought and i thought...
finally !! the light bulb lighted up *ting* came up with... "If ever there was a time for you in my life, that time would be everyday.."
and guess what happen the next day ?? i didnt see her. so sad !! whole day i did nothing weird huh ?? now that i think about it, it is a little weird.
TEP is boring but fun at time. its stressful when you dun have enough completed surveys. Oh i wish i could be out with baby, slacking with the guys or talking cock with lee and his gang. but life's like that you cant always have what you want.
i know i dun always seem smart. i know i am always like an idiot but life's about enjoying, whats the point of being so serious all the time? chill out..
WE HAVE DONE IT GUYS !! we have made it through SBM ORIEANTATION '07. its has been a hard road many days and nights of tiring work and stress but we pulled it off guys !!
dorcas did a excellent job of coming up with the mass dance. I LOVE MASS DANCE !! everyone put in so much effort some even coming back to school on good friday :)
through LTC, through OGL camp and lastly through ORIEANTATION, we been through alot together. it has brought us so much closer to each other. GLAD TO HAVE KNOWN EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU. to those who want to be exco, all the best !!
i personally wont mind :) but msut learn to be contend ya ??
HAHAHA the past one month has been really tough but if anything it has brought us together. :) baby has been really nice to me this past month. we have our childish bickering, our sweets, our sours. all i wana say is..
baby i really teasure everything we have. and thanks for sticking through with me LOVES :)
i want to say i big thank you to my special someone. recently, life has been throwing shit at us. things are really busy and tiring but thanks even more for holding on and standing by me. i am gratful that we get to see each other every few days and i am glad we always enjoy our time together. i know i am childish at times, thanks for putting up with me.
all you are telling me is that you cant accept this. all i want is for us to go throught this together. its hard. i know but we promised we would go through anything together. through thick and thin we can make it together. i dun understand i really dun..
i really screwed up. i am so sorry. i dun know how i can make it up or do i even deserve to be talking to you. i really disappointed you, i am a bastrad. someone stab me.
so much shit is happening to me !! its not fair, i realy feel its not. i realy want to be with you, i find that i am yet again in void of anything but saddness. i really wnat you beside me again.
back from camp.. damm tired today. slept 13 hours today. my god you know how long that is ?? i hardly ever sleep 13 hours. sick plus lack of sleep plus PT right after i wake up plus the previous day's attemped raping by lee and charlene plus the long trip carrying all the stuff = dead tired
camp was.. ok. feedback was not bad. brought my speakers from my com to the camp, havent set them back up yet HAHA.
first day..
logistics moving and stuff was really bad. timing was totally off and cheryl and i wore the same tee shirt. as usual most of the people was late, most people garthered at about 720 ? about there, campers also were late. i had no duty the first day so i was basically running around helping out when i was needed and stuff like that. helped out at cheryl's station most of the day. john almost got beaten up by veenoth lucky we stopped him. that john ar.. cant put him near vee. first day ended very quickly. oh ya. our mass dance is really funny but upstairs is saying its too short. i think its just nice and a little too long in fact. people will take very long to learn. the subcoms took 2 hours jsut to learn it and they are sub coms !! or was it cause hardly anyone knew the steps at that time ?? HAHA i think it should be the later. night walk was really bad. lots of stuff could have been better my station at carpark 13 could be much better. i was suprised trail walk being done during the camp normally they do it before the camp at least. debrief was really funny. chris kept trying to defend himself HAHA till zhi wei had to say "this is debrief not dedate" i wanted to burst out laughing when i heard that but i was too tired. oh ya.. i fell asleep during bebrief faizal and thiam wei had to wake me up when it was my turn. in the end slept at about 4 plus.
last day..
woke up about 6. realised i could hardly walk. my knee hurt like hell. limp to wash up and get ready for my duty, PT. suprised ? a cripple is taking PT HAHA.. but by orders from mummy, PT was so slack till even the smokers could take it. HAHA then it was on to sports league helped zhi wei out for frisbee. took group 6 and group 1 for the first game. it ended in a draw. group 6 was leading at first till i subed john/terrence/zong huan then the score changed to 2 - 1 in favour of group 1 but group 6 fought back and brought the game to a draw. then everyone took a 5 min break, when talking to zhi wei i realise he change somethings. he made the captions ball into a champianship round, winner play with winner and all but that means that the groups at my station would not get to play captions ball. so we ended up with a switch the loser vs losers match will swap with my groups and they will come to my station but group 3 were like tired 3 gals didnt want to play and i could see that they were dead tired so let them rest. ended up playing soccer. raman and faizal joined in to fill up the spaces. damm funny, the only goal was a wrong pass to siti who scored a damm nice one into the bottom left corner of the goal. after the match i went to talk to zhi wei again this time he told me john pissed someone off again. seems like he pushed dickson a little too rough for other people's liking. sometimes its tiring trying to stop john from geting into shit seems like he is asking for it. its hard enough getting vee to not tear him apart. after that i was free again. so i took a break slept a short while before going down for a short lunch. then after lunch, qiu yan asked me to help out with the logistics so i went asking if anyone need help. ended up helping cheryl fill the water bombs with the rest of the guys. and carrying stuff around. when it started raining lee called for the taskforce's help but they seemed to have their hands full so i asked darren, alextine and lay ling to so over to the hockey pitch to help. after walking awhile i turn around and realised only lay ling was coming with me. what happened to the guys, guess they didnt hear me. helped lee move the stuff indoors. we were laughing at nasarath, she looked like she was having her period. blood was not the thing coming out but SOAP !! HAHA.. damm funny. got caught in the rain a little cos the bucket was really heavy and from then on i never got dry. next up wet games but indoors. not happy about this part will voice it out in debrief later till then i will keep quiet. helpped out at alexstine and lay ling's station. had fun using glibert's gun to shoot cold water at people HAHA. poured water on eve and haini using the buckets and hugged leah to make her wet. got poured cold water on by eve and a plastic bag by jeremy. clean up was fast. then it was wash up/dinner time but the sub coms didnt get time to bath so i just changed out of my wet clothes. then my headache came, real big one and started feeling giddy too. after changing time for final reheasal, i was rather upset that even less then an hour before the preformance we cant get full force to be there. performance went not bad, i broke a glass bottle by hitting it with a spoon, guess my giddy-ness caused me to have a loss of control of strength. cause lay ling to have a cut on her feet, sorry about that. half asleep throughout the rest of the night really felt like shit will post some pics tmr. everyone got their LTC tee shirts and then was dismissed.
david and lee came up with a remix.
we say goodbye we say goodbye we say goodbye to smokefree camp we say goodbye to somkefree camp~
we say hello we say hello we say hello to smoking alley we say hello to smoking alley~
guess i am glad john and someone didnt get beaten up. thought that someone pissed alot of people off in the camp. guess something dun need to be said i will continue to prevent thing from hapen though most dun even know about it.
