you know what ?? problems are like mad dogs that are after you. the more you run the more you know its going to hurt when they catch up to you. i never had the luxury of running from my problems. thanks to my sis i guess. she kept pressuring me to be the best. guess i owe it to her. thats why i learnt..
NEVER RUN AWAY
if its a fight, its my fight. if its a problem, its my problem and i sure dun want to walk around with that problem after me.
thats why i dun understand. we who choose to fight and die with honour, knowing we fought the good fight, cant understand those who choose to run. FEAR, PAIN, SUFFERING, TESTS, TRIALS.. all only make you stronger.
Pain is the only feeling that tells you that you are alive. this pain i feel everyday reminds me that i on my way towards my goal of playing ball again. i am limping, moving in pain but its something i need to go through. for my goal of playing at my best again.
it was about a year ago when i first twisted my knee. one year of lying down. now its time to get back on my feet. starting with walking properly again. moving around hurts but its nice to know that i am getting the hang of it.
endure and jia you !! i can do this. 6 months.. i will be on the court again.
they do.. they really do. she told me it would be dangerous to make my whole life revolve around one person. now i see why..
i neglected my friends, the pangzies, my coffee-mate and my brothers, HS and kenny. i pushed everything aside to make time for her.
now when she isnt always free, i find myself rather alone. i would like to thank all who came back to me. like HS, kenny, jana, dinesh and lee. you guys are the best.
anyway i am not asking you to be here, would jsut like you to know that i will find stuff to pass my time till you are free. :)
i feel so locked up. stuck in this dark room. not allowed to leave the house. the pain and risk of nfection keeps me in. i hate this lonesome room. i dun want to be alone so much. its like the outside world has already forgotten about me. thats why i want you to be here. its really hard to sleep at night knowing tmr will be another day i wont see you. i want to see you. i really do.. i miss you like crazy but all i can do is think about you. i am sad.. days without you pass without meaning, spent aimlessly staring at the ceiling above. or sleeping it away. i miss you.. i want to be with you and never part.
maybe i love you too much.. till it hurts someone tell me if i am wrong ??
ya jsut had my surgery on friday. was knocked out for most of friday. and came home only on sat morning. was in a heck of alot of pain for most of the time. but nvm baby was here to make me feel all that better :) thanks baby. but.. she wont be coming over today :( i miss her..
oh well, she will be coming tmr !! so i am basically counting the mins till i see her again. and guess what ?? i got a 30 day MC !! WOOHOO say goodbye to TEP !! HAHA but i dun think i want to stay at home for 30 days but then DOC wants me to at least stay at home till the 24th guess that isnt too bad.
