Final farewell..

2002, we celebrate your birthday for the first time.
5 years later.. we are still at it.
condoms, G-strings, shirts and stuff as gifts.
seoul garden and pool as the party.
ice cream war and tons of toilet trips.
but it never fails to be fun.



would you rather have it any other way ??
i wont..

5 days of 2 farewells..

times of past..
times of mischief and fun..
times of boys and of gals..
times of study, work and play..

Buddha is flying off.
leaving the city of devils.
shit talked for long.
frog let a plane go
and the song still plays..


to our BSU team 1, its been fun.

To my man, guess all birds leave home someday right ? this is the road you are taking, walk it with no regret. dD what you want and fight for it. onward to your future endeavours.
till the month the year closes.. i will be training for your return !!
YOUR ASS IS MINE !!

may thy father's hand be shielding..

Reasons why you are great..

1) you accepted a guy whom alot of other thought was lousy

2) you loved me though everyone around you told you otherwise

3) you stayed by me when every other gal would jsut let me go

4) you comforted me while my strength was not enough

5) you took care of me when i couldnt take care of myself

6) you take extra effort to reach where ever we were meeting though not always on time but the effort is what counts.

7) when my cash is not enough you always help me through

8) you give me your best gifts of all (your smiles)

9) you try so hard to please me even when i am having bad days

10) you listen to what i have to say to you and change (GREAT !! :D )

11) you make me feel you are so committed to me that i am afraid to lose you

12) you so beautiful that i feel roses are like weeds

13) you are so kind that you forgive those who hurt you (like me :( )

14) when you hold me, all my pain jsut goes away

15) you allow me to send you home though i dun have much cash left

16) being with you makes my heart smile

17) you are not ashamed to see me cry

18) you allow me to watch you sleep

19) you gave me more chances than anyone should get

and the 20th reason but not the last..

20) you brought light to a life that i thought was destinied for darkness and loneliness

i thank you and love you for that..
noone else makes me feel this good about my life.

only you are this great an angel to me.

I am sorry..

i dun want to be apart from you.

i dun want to not have you in my arms.

all i want is to hold you cos it takes away all my pain.

i want to be with you forever. i want to hold your hand and not let go.

i want to do all those things we promised and thought of.

i promise.. i will do everything you want with a smile.

i will change i promise you.
give me time.

MY SUNSHINE..

Thoughts about "family"..

its weird.. why does it seem like most people enjoy their families ?

my family ? well, maybe its just me but i am hardly ever really happy with my family. I mean they annoy me half the time and the other half they are asking me to do things. seems like the only things they are good for are supporting me with money.

i dun really feel like i can trust them nor i can really be natural with them. esp my grandparents, every time i go down to their house, its like a hell. its so freaking boring there. and my grandparents got a weird way of spoiling my mood every single time. my grandma doesn't like loud noises so basically i have to keep my voice down when i am there and there is no wireless there. TV sucks too and well, they just cant make me happy.

ok i am sorry but its human nature to be attracted to things that can actually make you happy. And well.. my family jsut cant make me feel that i am part of a family with them. they dun care as much as my friends. maybe its the way i was brought up ? HAHA cant be, my friends were the ones who taught me how to set goals and not lead a aimless life. thats why i would rather call them my "family"