i made alot of sleep last night thanks to Ctin so i woke up really early this morning and started thinking.
i realise that my blog post are all about her. she has really quickly become a big part of my life. she has provided me with smiles that i lost. right now, we still have some sorting out to do. smoothen the edges as we get closer. The Qn is a rather big issue on my mind. a part of me wants to be together NOW, another part wants to concentrate on exams and the last part wants to prove to her that status doesnt change feelings. i will wait for the day :) i havent been in alot of contact with her today so kinda miss her ALOT. HAHAHA but ya, hoping time would past faster so i can hold her in my arms soon.
yes jar jar, dun doubt me :) i do **** her
SBM club is also waiting for the exams to be over. i got a whole list of things to do when it starts got to work really hard for this club. most of the excos will be out on IPP this time and i am the most free one so i will try to do as much as i can.
life right now is really great :) interesting how having the support of someone new really lightens the load. Humans are social animals, company brightens our lives. nobody likes to be alone. i am glad i have a table of 4
Comfort is not measured by the softness of pillows but
i know its late to post this. been a little caught up with someone else :)
yes, its true. our president is back !! our vision, our direction :) finally time has come for me to step back into the back. our leader is in control now, i can go back to being my small part. my loyalites have return to him. live or die. i dun like to be serious or in front for that matter. i will leave the talking and planning up to you. i will work my ass off like old times. my support will be yours no matter what choices you make. after all those pranks, scoldings and insults, i guess we are still like family :)
its coming close to the time when SBM club starts with our crazy plans. the revolution is coming..
Sick bastard, leader, fucker, brother, idiot, motivator, mad dog, head of TMT, player, gentleman, ah beng, loud haler, slacker, inconsiderate, crapper, Background worker, shit, good friend, flirt..
names, sides, impressions. people are just so inflexible that when they see another side of someone, they cant accept it. its always interesting to be proven wrong so dun implant your impression of someone into your brain. instead use a pencil, give the person to prove you differently. keep an open mind :)
in light there is darkness and in darkness, light.
well, i guess what i want to say is that there is more to me. both good and bad..
i guess its true, it is darkest right before dawn. I REALLY MISS YOU ALOT. sweets really makes my day every time. FROM THE TIME WE PART TILL THE TIME I HOLD YOU Ctin is the opposite of Pandora's box. MY HEART AND SOUL LONGS TO BE BESIDE YOU :) And my life is like the timing of the days, with you around its bright and sunny. without you, darkness calls me to rest.
Ctin says (8:16 PM): told u im smart No rest for the weary... says (8:17 PM): :) ya la.. No rest for the weary... says (8:17 PM): my sweets is smart Ctin (8:17 PM): not urs.... yet.
Do you remember those times, when the simple pleasure of someone company was enough, when the moments displayed by those precious moments figurines happens ?
tonight was one such night. all those 30 secs, 15 secs, 5 secs of happiness :) a simple touch of our fingers, a cute reaction of yours, the parting gift..
maybe its cos i really miss you. maybe its cos i haven't felt happiness for a long time
whatever the reason is, you know how to treat me :)
Ups and Downs, we had them all its really hard to please you sometimes but its always worth it to Good or Bad, we'll take any Fall i know i do alot of stupid things so please tell me... Better or Worse, We'll hear that Call i will change if you only tell me, dun keep it inside please ?
Things are going really well and nights with smiles seem never ending but i still screw up, i know. thank you for caring for me so much :)
Around your finger i may go but happy for i am next to gold.
reasons to smile in your sleep.. Eli's personal msg: she feels that no chance, BUT ITS NOT STOPPING US. LOL
Falling for you seems so natural now Ctin. says (1:35 AM): hi eli. Ctin says (1:35 AM): u know.. u're one hell of a sucker.
Like how you race through my head everyday Ctin says (1:38 AM): im sorry but i dont know u at all :D bottom line : i care too much.. so i should jsut dun care la says (1:38 AM): you talking to him ar ?? Ctin says (1:39 AM): HAHAHA bottom line : i care too much.. so i should jsut dun care la says (1:39 AM): applies for both right ? bottom line : i care too much.. so i should jsut dun care la says (1:39 AM): MUAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAH Ctin says (1:39 AM):
I try so hard because i am scared to lose bottom line : i care too much.. so i should jsut dun care la says (1:49 AM): eli. 'i'm glad you asked boss! Ooooooo,Ooooooo!' says (1:49 AM): i wanted to sae 'isnt janet the cutest thing ever' bottom line : i care too much.. so i should jsut dun care la says (1:49 AM): this is damm funny also Ctin says (1:49 AM): eeee Ctin says (1:49 AM): so corny Ctin says (1:50 AM): n Ctin says (1:50 AM): janet is not A THING
i am sensative not cos partly because i am insecure but mainly cos i want to treat you right bottom line : i care too much.. so i should jsut dun care la says (1:51 AM): eli. 'i'm glad you asked boss! Ooooooo,Ooooooo!' says (1:50 AM): haha, well ctin is kinda cute duncha think? bottom line : i care too much.. so i should jsut dun care la says (1:50 AM): HAHAHA bottom line : i care too much.. so i should jsut dun care la says (1:51 AM): OF COS !! Ctin says (1:51 AM): erm? Ctin says (1:51 AM): not for u to appreciate, bootlicker :D
I praise your looks because you look beautiful and they surely deserve praise Ctinsays (2:02 AM): but i believe the highlight of it isnt the hamster Ctin says (2:02 AM): something else... Ctin says (2:02 AM): hmm.... Ctin says (2:02 AM): lol
my fav: Because it gave me new hope Ctin says (2:02 AM): hahaha Ctin says (2:03 AM): at least for once.. Ctin says (2:03 AM): we're.. Ctin says (2:03 AM): on the right channel bottom line : i care too much.. so i should jsut dun care la says (2:03 AM): yap Ctin says (2:03 AM): lol bottom line : i care too much.. so i should jsut dun care la says (2:03 AM): slowly getting there bottom line : i care too much.. so i should jsut dun care la says (2:03 AM): :) Ctin says (2:03 AM): happy la someone Like a real angel, you have been a blessing to to me
i will understand and change.. but i need to know that you care, can ?? HAHAHA all this is really FUNNY !!! tonight i shall sleep with a wide smile :D get it right ??
first time i saw you, i jsut woke up opened my eyes and saw an angel
second time i met up with you, it was dinner i knew i had fallen for you and i couldnt stop
third time i looked at you, it was a long night i realised the distance between us but i am still aiming for that spot beside you
its been a long night, not a fun one but at least you had fun. so it will pass. making the common mistake of thinking too much. sometimes i wish you will tell me whats wrong. coldness gets us nowhere cos i am still clueless over you.
well, things are just really great. everything is going really well, talking has not become less weird and more or less natural. still not over the obvious flirting :D and praising of her looks.
but.. ya.. there is a boo boo. i am stuck on this fence, i may fall into paradise or to the other side of the fence. till she gets over her fear of guys, i wont really know. my side ?? the fear of gals is still lingering but i see good in her hopefully things will work out. i will treat her as nicely as i can and hope that i can change her views. till then its on this fence i will sit. not very comfortable but i am not going to rush her.
Shilong wrote: HAHA no.. you are cute in person too. jsut dropping a compliment. :) you not going for the performance today right ??
Ctin wrote: haha. what's that suppose to mean? that im photogenic ONLY ? LOL! =D
