hello world, wondering why i am blogging so early ?? cos i am on halfday !! i couldnt take it anymore so i took a halfday and i am totally going crazy now.
the world seems to become black and white for me. at work i cant concentrate, at home i feel miserable. i thought about it alot and i know why god is doing this.. he wants me to feel the pain of my actions. i thought about it alot and suddenly i found that it was really familiar. its like my last relationship only that now i am eve and she is me. god.. what am i to do.. how can i show her that we are meant to be ? i hate my MP3 its playing all the songs that mean alot to me. "can i have this dance?", "meet me halfway", "1,2,3,4", "right here,right now"..
god it hurts so much.. feels like a hole is opening up where my heart used to be.. my heart has always been with you.. if that isnt enough god give her my life cos my life isnt worth anything without her.
what will i do if she left me ? its too scary to think about. that nightmare last night is too horrible.
