sorry.. everything is in pieces. i am trying my very best to keep it all together but sometimes i just fall down again. faking a smile, faking a life.. believing in things that i dun believe.
i hate all this.. i.. nvm.. i respect your choice..
i talked to her mum that day. her mum still wanted to be friends with me. she says i will make a good husband ( i cant even be a good boyfriend who cares about husband) kinda weird.. i.. dun know.. i just dun know anymore..
i dun know how long i am going to keep running, how long i am keep going to bluff myself that i am happy, how long i can keep this act up.. i need a break from life.
i realised, i have very few true friends.. all those who i thought were true, where are you now?? you care ?? you will always be there?? lies.. i even have one fucker saying that he will go clubbing with her. that it, none of you are real. so just get out of my life.
i am alone anyway so i might as well be.. the world stands for nothing. we will all burn in the depths of hell. very fucking CB.. just wanna scream !!
rage, anger, violence, sadness, confusion, memories, pain, numbness in a mixture of paradoxes and lies in my emptiness..
