TIE MY HANDS AND COVER MY MOUTH AS YOU KILL MY HEART..
nice :)) i would like that.
auto pilot again..
too many things to think about
uni ?? 2011 or 2012 ?? SIM, Kaplan or Monash ?
i made too many plans around her, with her gone, i need to replan everything, restart my life.
i dun know how but i guess i got to try. my life is the stakes, my next steps are the gamble. pray i will make the right choice
friends ?? no need, i will get myself out of this mess that i got myself into. they arent of any use anyway. i am stronger than this, better, more efficient. better management, more....
i got to work this out cos i need to take a step forward. and i need to save alot alot alot of money
my promotion has helped me in more ways than i know. its boasted my confidence, changed my job scope, changed my duties.. but.. there's always a but, it means more responsibilities. taking care of my men.. etc.
pat you know, i really want to go back to who i was but i will never be the same. i.. am too scared to do what i need to. i really... nvm i know i should move on.
siti, i really think that i dun mind dying alone. whats so wrong with that ? i am trying my best but it know myself the best.
i will keep wearing this mask, i will be strong..
i am really lucky that noone reads this blog anymore.
its coming close to a special date. so i am thinking more.. its hard and it hurts sometimes but wounds reopen sometimes, i pray that you are doing well.
i.. will need a while. there are things i like but some other things stop me from them. i need to focus, i will be a Sergent soon.
you know.. i always prayed to god when she was upset, i would pray for god to take my happiness and give it to her. give her my life so as to protect her from harm. well, its payment time i guess.
at the chalet, i remembered what happened a little more than a year ago, last may.. i remember what happened..
but now.. there is nothing, and i got to live with that, i know.. all this pain, all this suffering.. just means that i have loved before..
