A night of many thoughtsi thought about alot of things tonight
my duty clerk made me think with all his qns
i cant fall in love with anyone, not anymore..
if i am to leave this land for good then it will be unfair to ask her to leave it with me.
and even more unfair for her to have to wait for me.
not like i have anyone to love or that anyone would love me
love doesnt exist anymore..
but guilt still does
and misery...
hold me now at 12:42 AM