A long time...
its been a month. i have avoided coming back here cos.. well.. you know..
argh.. confusion stirs my thoughts. i wana be the best again. i am under alot of pressure and i guess i got to soak it up. work hard !!!
i feel very lost.. i used to work so hard for someone. thus no matter how hard i had to fight for something or how much hours i had to put in, it was worth it. just to see her smile. there was always a future in the distance.
now ?? i dun even know why i am still trying.. for myself ?? for my goals ?? i guess.. but whats after that ?? its days like this i miss your hugs and smiles..
but i guess its not meant to be..
smile because it happened that's what i tell myself.
enough tears had been shed..
hold me now at 11:32 PM